Pen merah, Pen biru, U marah, I love u.

How Do I Love Thee

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday’s

Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with the passion put to use

In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

With my lost saints!—I love thee with the breath,

Smiles, tears, of all my life!—and, if God choose,

I shall but love thee better after death.

-Elizabeth Barrett Browning

ive been watching a lot of movies right now because i havent much things to do in the house. well actually i do but well, you know.. :P and there has been a lot of movies that include this poem in the script. like the movie My Giant and other movies that i cant remember the titles. and everytime the person reads the poem to his/her lover, i would be like, “hey thats that poem!” and kinda like do my own version of that scene in my head.

the first time i read this poem was from a book of everlasting love poems that i found in Borders. i stayed in that store for a very long time with that book. (didnt want to buy it because my budget on that day was for a dress. :P) reading it made me feel all mushy inside. and then when i reached this poem, my eyes got all teary. HAHA. i know..i know.. they’re just words. but i love words. and sometimes, words are all i have. and as deceiving as they can be, i still spend most of my time believing in them.

being a muslim, we are fortunate that we have the Al Qoran as our true guidance. its like the source for everything. and ALLAH knowing that we humans love words with beautiful and rhyming structures, created the Al Qoran exactly that- beautiful, touching and inspiring.

there are plenty of rhyming surahs in the Al Qoran that i love to listen to. especially if they’re recited by the Macca’s imams, hafizs and of course from my dad. but i have my personal favourite from listening to the Al Qoran cd that my dad likes to play, surah Ar-Rahman. that surah gives me the chills. perhaps its because of the line;

فَبِأَيِّ آلاءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَان

that is repeated for about 30 times (correct me if im wrong) which means;

Which then, of the favours of your Lord will you twain deny?

if you really go deep in the surah, it’ll touch you. well actually every surah has the capability to do that but for me, Ar-Rahman does it best. because it rhymes and of course because of ALLAH’s reminders and warnings that is emphasized again and again to make us realize of how our actions and deeds as a humble servant would affect our life now and in the life hereafter.

words. say them. read them. write them. decorate them with truth or lies, with honesty or sarcasm, with happiness or pain. because yes, they are that powerful. :)

Hikmah?

ive been spending less time in front of the computer.

been jumpy and dragging along the golf club whenever im alone. and my phone has never been apart eversince. :(

he’s back. like really back. why now? when everythings just going on fine. but would it be finer with him back? i dont know. its always been “i dont know” with him. but he seems so sure this time. so sure that i believe him. or is it because i want to believe him? confused he says. thats also what he said. do guys get confusion syndromes or something? especially concerning this issue! geez.

Ya ALLAH, im nothing without You. i beg for your help. help…

p.s: inspire me.

Saya Anak Hj. Nazri

My dad asked me the other day,

“Kaklang, nak bagi apa kat Papa utk Father’s Day?”

and i couldnt answer. why? because in my head i was saying,

“Alaaa, hadiah Kaklang pun Papa tak bagi apa lagiii”

and then because of my pause, my dad asked my brother,

“Bangah, nak bagi apa kat Papa?”

“Nak bagi motor baru!”, he replied.

and we laughed. (it was a joke. because of the increasing price of petrol and all. gettit?)

anywayy, only then it striked me. oh God, how selfish can i be?? all i think about is myself. its Father’s Day! Father’s. and yet, i think about i myself.

when i was little, i was my dad’s girl. its always like that, kan? daughters with fathers.

i remember this one time, my dad asked me if i wanted to go see goats. yupp, my dad’s a very kampung guy. he’s always amazed with goats, cows, and all that. (he’s been having this idea to have our own farm at our back yard. but till now, the only animal we own is a fat cat). so ofcourse i was delighted to follow him. i loved it when it was only the two of us. didnt matter if we were just going to go see goats at some farm.

so i got in the car with him. smiling from ear to ear. and just when my dad got the car out of the garage, suddenly he appeared. my brother, waggling his hands screaming,

“Japp! Nak ikut jugak tengok kambing!!”

and i said,

“takyah tunggu Bangah, Pa.. Jumlaa. Cepat cepat! Japgi dia sampai! Tinggal dia!”

my dad said,

“Kaklang, Papa tak penah ajar anak-anak Papa buat perangai macam tu. Biarla Bangah nak ikut sekali. Apa salahnya.”

so apa lagi, merajuklaaa. all i wanted was some father-daughter time. just between me and my dad. but he thought i just wanted to let my brother get mad for being left out. but at the end, it was even fun having my brother to play with the goats. we both got his equal attention. 

my dad is a great guy. he always think of others more than himself. and that is also the reason for him to expect the same thing from everyone- especially his kids. if we keep saying, “me.. me.. me..”, he would then ask about, “oh, then how was your brother/friend/etc..?” it has always been about sharing and caring about other people besides us.

so what am i giving my dad for Father’s Day?

ohhh nothing.. just endless supply of respect, honour, and LOVE. ;)

I LOVE YOU, PA.

HAPPY PAPA’S DAY!

 

My birthday is in August

I was tagged by Kak Nad. :)

 

5 presents :

1. unlimited supply of books. several that im currently interested: Ahern’s, Kinsella’s, Sparks’s, Hosseini’s. *hint..hint*
2. a bag made of beautiful genuine cowhide leather.
3. a video camera!!!!
4. poem(s).
5. him.

5 reasons for the above :

1. books are my escape when im bored, sad or lonely. so whoever gives me books will make me happy! :D
2. a girl can never have enough bags.
3. so that my kids/grandkids will get to see how was i like then(now) and because i cant afford it myself.
4. because writings stay with you forever.
5. hehe. adalaaa. ;p

5 characteristics that I like in a person that I admire : 

1. beriman.
2. absolutely not self-absorbed. a good listener, and great company.
3. respects me and the people i love.
4. can make everyone feel at ease.
5. confident when giving speeches/talks in the public.

Best thing he ever did for me :

Hmmm, make me smile alllll day. :)

 

 

5 things you do when you are bored : 

1. oh daydreaming ofcors! (but i dont need boredom for this.) :p
2. go window shopping. alone.
3. read, write, read, write.
4. sms, call or BUZZ people that i shouldnt be smsing, calling or BUZZing.
5. play games. and thats when im really bored.

5 greatest inventions : (mine or whom?)

1. the Internet.
2. wafer machines.
3. boot cut jeans.
4. blogs-now everyone can get their writings published. 
5. Harry Potter series.

5 most hated :

1. green-eyed monsters and snobs.
2. being disturbed when im asleep.
3. when i see something that i really like and i have the money to pay it too but then no size or out of stock. ugh.
4. nonstop ear-aching nagging.
5. doing laundry. hehh.

 

 

5 people to be tagged :

feel free to be it, people! :D

 

 

 *ignore the font’s different colours and sizes. its unintentional. 

Best Answer so far

Berharap dan merayu pada Pencipta,

dapat Dia, dapat segala.

Harap pada makhluk hujung kecewa,

Harap pada ALLAH hujung bahagia.

 

he’s sooo kind. thank you. moga ALLAH tentukan yang terbaik. :)